No Cigar!

Jess went in yesterday to receive cervidil and it didn't happen. The nurse she spoke with had a brain cloud and told her incorrect information which the dr. knew nothing about. Jess is schedule to go back in on Tuesday for more stress tests, etc. She said she can tell the baby has really dropped low over the last few days. Not much longer!

Still laying around like a schlub. Luckily the weather is gray and crappy so I don't really want to go anywhere. I would like a project of some kind - maybe I can find something in the craft closet to work on. I still can't get anyone to go to a bookstore for me. The spotting has tapered way off so now I sit here just waiting for Tuesday, my next Dr. appointment to see if the tear has shrunk any. I wish I could go to the dr. every week - so far I have been!

I found the "heartbeeps" again last night with the little sonogram machine. Deep breath! They sound nice and STRONG! It makes me smile every time!

Still chillin'

Well, it's day 5 of my boredom! I've laid in bed, folded laundry, read books, done computer work and have only gotten up to eat, make my special Jasmine Flower tea and to go potty. Still spotting. It's sporadic, sometimes heavy, sometimes extremely light but always there. It does get heavier if I am vertical for to long.

My friend Heather came over yesterday morning and brought me a big warm sweatshirt that she put a logo on as well as had me try a pair of maternity yoga pants that she is starting to make. They are fabulous! Later in the day my friend Tanya came by. It's always nice to see her.

Jessica, my pregger friend in MD will be going to the dr. today to take cervidil (http://www.frx.com/products/cervidil.aspx) - she's so miserable and they think the baby is at least 9+ pounds. She is 39 weeks so she wants to try to push before Eli gets too big to come out. She is scheduled to be induced on Monday if this doesn't work. It could possibly happen today or over the weekend. I'm hoping it goes fast and he comes out with no complications!

Other than that, just hanging out, trying to get someone to go to the bookstore for me. Any volunteers???

Will it ever end???

I guess I got a little excited when Candace came over and told me about the LKN Women meeting because I started bleeding again. This is driving me crazy. I had another bad headache yesterday. I think I should research to see if I can go to an acupuncturist or back to the chiropractor. My lower back on the left side is making me hobble around. Fun - Fun - Fun

Well, back to the bed with me! I'll post more later!

I guess bed rest is best

I've been chillin' the last couple of days and have stopped spotting almost entirely. I am so bored and have been doing lots on the computer. The babies are getting bigger - when I get up from laying down I can feel where they are in my uterus. They are suppose to be 4 inches long each and weigh about 2 ounces! We're to 15 weeks. I guess I'll have to do nothing until the SCH goes away which should be in about 5 weeks. That's going to be a long time for me to sit around and do nothing.

Still having headaches almost daily and am trying so hard not to take the Fiorcet but have had to a couple of times and it worked great. I just don't want to become dependant on it again.

Other than that, LKN Women meet tonight at a great event at CAP benefitting Barium Springs Home for Children and I can't go. It sucks!!! I was so excited for this event. I will miss seeing everyone. I hope the turnout is great. I have a feeling this will be a huge one for us!

Well - gonna go rest and have lunch! Will post more later!

Seeing Spots??

I saw Dr. Miller yesterday and needless to say, he wasn't very happy with me. He told me that I didn't understand the meaning of just resting and that I had to stop doing everything. No more meetings, no more walking around Lowe's, no more going up and down stairs, and that I shouldn't be riding in the car for an extended period of time. The spotting had almost stopped until I got to the office at which time there was a lot of dark brown.

On a positive note.....the babies look beautiful! Their sizes are perfect, there is plenty of fluid for both. The tear looks smaller and the fibroid has not grown. It is on the back left side of my uterus, close to the opening of my cervix which is why I am having pain on the left and is possibly why I have a tear in the first place.

It's 4:33 a.m. and I just got up to go potty and the dark blood is back. I am just hoping this thing is bleeding itself out. Lots of postings I've read say these things usually resolve by 20 weeks. Not much longer now. I can hang in there, I hope!!! It was positive to hear that the babies are doing great but now the blood is back and it stresses me out. I can't clear my head to go back to sleep so here I type.

The girls are so excited for Christmas. I am trying to stay positive for Peter, myself, and to show the girls what the having the "Christmas Spirit" means. It's getting harder for me to smile when I have a ton of things on my mind. Not just with the babies but just the whole place our whole family is right now. My parents are stressed, his parents are stressed, just about everyone I know is stressed. It's just stressing and I know it isn't good for my to be preggo with twins and unable to silent my thoughts. We all just need something positive to happen. So here I am trying to think of positive, positive, positive. It's just wearing me down and it's getting harder to snap out of it.

But..........the babies are healthy and growing perfectly........my girls are excited about Christmas.......they are trying to be better helpers in their own little ways........I just felt the right baby move......we have a family that loves us.......I have really good friends that will be here for me no matter what......I'm trying to snap out of it but I just can't so I'll just stop for now and type back later! Everybody think happy and positive thoughts and maybe something good will happen!

Starting to taper off!

Well, I've been to the bathroom about 50 times since I passed more blood this morning and it's starting to taper off. My Dr. is in surgery but I've spoken to the nurse twice and she has put me on bed rest. They want me to come in at 3:45 p.m. unless he says differently. This time wasn't as bad as the last time which is hopeful for me - maybe it means the clot is becoming less and less. I've read that these things usually settle by 20 weeks which is just 5 more weeks away!!! Those will be happy days when I don't have to dread going to the potty and seeing blood.

On another note....Ava has been up sick to her tummy from about 6:45 a.m. I don't think she could have eaten anything that would make her sick. She is soooo pitiful! We're making her stay in bed today and rest - so much for me resting, I've become her maid! Peter's home working so that helps a lot!

I'll keep posting later!

It's been a long night

Well, I've been up worrying all night. The spotting was getting heavier throughout the day yesterday and I laid around with my legs up for most of the day that I was home. Throughout the wee hours, the spotting has turned into blood again and I just passed another clot. I got my little sonogram out and can still hear both of the heartbeats going strong but I am so worried about this blood. I have to wait until 7:30 a.m. to call the dr. I already know what he will say. I am going to have to go back on bedrest and just be happy about it. It's makes me feel so bad because I can't help Peter with anything, I can't play with the girls, I can't go just walk around anywhere. Uggghhhh!!!!!

I'll post more after I talk to the dr.'s office! Keep your fingers crossed that all is alright.....

Guess I'm still overdoing it!

We had a family adventure yesterday! I decided that we should go try to cut down our own Christmas tree. My mom found a place in Lincolnton, about an hour away and off we went. On the way there I noticed that feeling again that I might be spotting. The day before we went to Lowe's, (I walked around) then the movie store and did some other riding around. When we got there, I went to the potty - the spotting is back. Not heavy, not bad like before but it's back. We didn't like the trees at the place so we left after about 10 minutes. It took us forever to get home due to a necessary stop at Boss Hog's Bar-B-Que! Once we got home, I was in bed with my feet up. It's tapered off but I told Peter I have GOT to take it easy over the next few days. Plus, I got up this morning sneezing, congested and my nose is all runny. PLEASE don't let me get sick! I'll keep you posted!