LKN Women and Heartbeat

Another successful meeting for LKN Women. We were at Head Over Heelz in Mooresville, NC. and had a great time. I am so thankful for all the wonderful friendships I have made from the group. Tons of support and also a great source of knowledge in my ladies. Everyone made sure I sat, didn't pick up anything, didn't move anything. It was so hard not to jump right in and go back to running around, passing out hugs.

Candace and Heather, my little sneaks brought in a birthday cake as a surprise and I must say, it was one of the highlights of my birthday. I was all smiles but at one point I thought I was going to bust out crying because they cared enough to do something special.

Peter and the girls took me to the meeting then went to Gammaw's and Pappaw's for dinner. I didn't have to drive and kinda liked it. They came back to pick me up and Peter loaded up everything and was mad at me for even standing around. I got a great new pair of shoes so I am super happy! They rock!

We got home and the girls were exhausted. Thanks to Daddy for snagging them and taking them up to bed. We always have to have just a couple of minutes of snuggle time before they go upstairs. While Peter was upstairs, I got the sonogram out and thought I'd give it another try. After several minutes, I was able to find a heartbeat!!!! Fast little thing!! I almost missed it but once I zero'ed in on it, I was grinning from ear to ear. I had to wait for Peter to come back downstairs so he could hear it for himself. I could only find 1 though and it was right at the left of my c-section scar so that must be the baby that is underneath. Maybe we should name that one Sydney because "it" is down under!!!! I am so glad my day ended on a positive note! I really needed a little boost and to be around my friends and then to hear that little heartbeat just let me know that everything will be alright.

11 Weeks and counting

Well my birthday, November 4th, didn't start out as lovely as I had hoped. I started spotting at 4 a.m. and stayed up all night, worrying. It wasn't bright red blood, more peach colored. I called the dr. at 8:00 a.m. and was in there by 8:40 a.m. Another vaginal u/s and everything looked different from last week. The babies were pushed over to the left, they were on the right last week, their measurements matched last week and now the lower baby is measuring a few days behind. There was this big round thing on the u/s which turned out to be a fibroid growing with the babies and is now as big as them. I also have a subchorionic hematoma. Here's a link to help understand exactly what that is: http://www.justmommies.com/articles/subchorionic-hematoma.shtml . I was in the process of asking questions when there was a knock on the door, the dr. started saying sorry, and he had to leave to go to labor and delivery. He told me bedrest for a few days as he was running out, keep my appt. in 2 weeks with them and that he was sorry. There I sat, my legs in the stirrups starring at the technician. She couldn't answer my questions and I didn't know which way to turn. I got to my car and lost it. I called my mother and talked to her until I calmed down. I came home, still very upset, balling my eyes out to be exact. I don't know why I got so upset. It's just so hard hearing that anytime there is blood present you are in danger of loosing your babies. I think I would have been a little more at ease if my dr. had stayed around long enough to answer my questions. Am I wrong in being a little miffed at the fact that there was no one for me to talk to about the news I had just received? I felt so lost. Thank god for the internet! I googled subchorionic-hematoma and found lots of helpful information. Apparently it was much more common than I realized and more so in multiple pregnancies.

I also think I am so tired of my birthday's. I use to look so forward to my birthday and the last few years they just suck. Next year is my big 4-0 and I am so hoping it won't suck. If I make it through this pregnancy and we are able to have the twins, they will be about 7 months old at my 40th birthday. Wow, that'll be a fun time! That's around the time that they start interacting which is always a fun time.

Really, my hopes are that everything turns out great. Just knowing that I am only 11 weeks and have already been placed on bedrest, it's a little daunting thinking that most of my life for the next few months will be just laying around but - if that's what I have to do, then that's what I will do. It could be much worse and I could be in the hospital on bedrest. Let's just hope I can avoid that all together.