Day after Christmas

What a nice Christmas! The girls heard Santa on Christmas Eve and could barely go to sleep. Ava, the nightowl, got up at 1 a.m. and came down announcing what Santa had left by the tree. I made her get in bed and go back to sleep. We made it until 8 a.m. The girls were very happy and excited with their goodies. We pretended to be amazed that they received anything because they aren't the best listeners in the world. We spent the day with my parents and had a wonderful dinner and great desserts. We had to take the dogs which was the only annoying part of the day! Needless to say, I was exhausted when we got home but we were able to clean out the toy bins to hold all the new toys.

I am feeling Sawyer and Finn wiggling a lot more. I'll be happy when the girls can put their hands on my tummy and feel them. I think it'll make a little more sense then. Ava makes sure I am wearing my pregnant shirt and pregnant pants before I go anywhere. Jaylen told me she is going to sing lullaby's and rock the babies when they get here. I really hope they will be the best helpers ever. That will make life much easier.

I go to the dr. next week! I'll keep you posted til then.

Level II Ultrasound

Everything is PERFECT! The boys are measuring only 1 ounce apart which is perfect, the brain, spine, legs, arms, tummies, bladders, hearts, wee-wee's, and everything in between are measuring exact! There is plenty of fluid in both of their sacks. They said that they don't suspect identical twins but sometimes identical twins can come from 2 separate sacs with 2 different placenta's and that we really wouldn't be able to tell until they are 6 months old. I'm so glad Peter got to see both of their "purinas" (that's what the girls call a penis). Now he knows for sure that both are boys. I've downloaded some of the photos for your viewing pleasure!

This is Finn laying on his side

This is Sawyer on his side, back facing


Finn and Sawyer facing each other

Enjoy!!!

Ava the adorable!

First, everything is great with the pregnancy except headaches and backaches. That's to be expected.

We went to the grocery store as a family yesterday and everyone we passed in the aisle, Ava announced to them that her mommy was having 2 baby boys and that their names are Sawyer and Finn. She was so proud and excited, it made me feel happy all over! So very, very cute!

Tonight is the first night of Hanukkah and the girls are excited about being able to open one of their gifts. They said that after they open those, then Santa will come.

I'm trying to figure out a way to get to the movies to see Twilight since I've finished the books and am wanting more.

My friend Jess was able to bring her baby home without the need for surgery! YIPPEE!! They will check him again in a couple of weeks and they will determine then if he will even need surgery. I hope everything straightens out on it's on - 85% of the time, it does.

I go to the Women's Institute on Tuesday morning and will post again then.

The boyz

I have been feeling the boyz move around a lot more lately. I've been thinking about running to Babies-R-Us with Jaylen this morning and registering for the upcoming baby shower. I just want to get out of the house but also just want to lay around. I feel bad that Monday and Wednesday Jaylen is stuck at home with me not able to go anywhere or do anything. I was trying to think of somewhere fun to go that didn't cost money and the baby store is the only thing I'm coming up with.

I've been sleeping great, minus the dreams! This period of time in a pregnancy is called the "honeymoon stage" because this is when all the problems seems to disappear. I'm still happy to report, no spotting, staining or discoloration of any kind!! Still having headaches frequently but am trying so hard to stick to just Tylenol.

I spoke with Jess yesterday and Eli was still in NICU. They were going to transport him to Johns Hopkins because he will eventually need surgery on one of his tubes in the wee-wee area. Other than that, he's perfect and will hopefully be home very soon. I know it has to be unbearable to have him away while all they can do is wait to find out what has to be done next but Eli is in a good place and it's better that they caught the issue this early and not later in his life. I just hope they can keep it together for this brief time as it will get better, fast!

Other than that, it's rainy and foggy outside, cold. It would be a perfect "reading" day but I am starting to feel like a caged animal and need to get out of the house!

One of the worst things.....

I am happy to report that all is still clear!

One of the worst things about being preggo, other than having to constantly make sure there is no spotting and just having to slow down are the dreams you have while you're pregnant. Sometimes nightmares, sometimes dreams so real and vivid, how could they not be true? The one I had this a.m. was of Ava going off to college. I thought my heart would break. Before that one was a dream about us having to pack all of our belongings and move from our house. That one made me sit up in bed with tears in my eyes.

Other than that, I've been reading a lot and am almost finished with the Twilight books. I am on the fourth book and cannot stop until I've reached the end. I've read all three books in just a few days and I will be done with the last today. I'm glad it's rainy out because at least I don't feel so guilty about not going anywhere. Days like this are perfect for reading in bed!

The Christmas party on Sunday was a lot of fun and it was nice to get out and have some time to be around other ladies. I mostly hung out with Chris and Cheryl but got to know a few new people. The gifts this year were better than last year and there wasn't a lot of switching going on. I however, took the opportunity to switch from a dish that had Merry Christmas Ya'll to get some GIANT wine glasses. They were intended to be candle holders but I could totally see a bottle of wine in just one glass and jumped on the chance to get those for when I am able to partake in wine drinking again! I've got my priorities straight!!!!

Alright - gotta go get the girls ready for school!

All is quiet!

I'll happily report that there has been NO spotting, staining or discoloration of any kind since I went to the dr. I've been more active and went out of the house 3 times this past week. My mother and I went to Wal Mart and I rode in one of those little carts which was starting to putz out on me towards the end of our shopping but it was still nice not to have to do all that walking. We went into Hickory yesterday and I walked the whole time but it didn't bother me.

I went to Head Over Heelz at Lake Norman and got a new pair of shoes called Billow Boots made by FitFlops (http://www.islandtrends.com/product-exec/product_id/6509/nm/Fit_Flop_Billow_Boot_Camel) and they ROCK!!!! Thank goodness I have an account there or I would have never gotten them but I am glad I did! Merry Christmas to me! My legs felt great and there was a "spring" in my step!

I am going to the bookstore today to get the third and forth books in the Twilight series - I've read book 1 and 2 in 2 days - they are like candy to my mind and I can't get enough!!! My neighbor across the street is having a Christmas party - you get to take someones gift if you don't like what you got. Last year was my first time experiencing this type of party and was unprepared. I think I'm ready this year!

Other than that, the babies are moving around - we're trying to pick names and they change daily - I woke up this morning and Peter and I listened to their "heartbeeps" before we started our day!

Elijah's Here!

Jess and Ben have their new baby boy - weighing in at 9 pds. 11 oz. 22 inches long!!! Mommy is a little sick after the epidural and pitocin and is receiving some med's to help with that. She will be in the hospital until Sunday. Yay! Way to go!

The latest NEWS!!!

I visited the dr. yesterday and got some really positive news! The tear is almost totally re-attached to the uterus which is what I needed to hear. I still have to take it EASY but I don't have to be on complete bed rest.

The office had a brand new fancy ultrasound and I was their first patient on it. The babies are perfect, heartbeats are perfect and we know what they are! Ready to find out??? R you sitting?
It 2 BOYS!!!!! I can't believe it! Just to find out we were having 1 boy was awesome but to find out they are both boys is just magical!!!!! I was so excited I almost jumped off the table! I can't believe it! Since I went to the dr. alone yesterday, I stopped and got 2 little blue rattles and 2 little boy outfits, put them in a bag and brought them home to Peter. As soon as I got home the first thing out of his mouth was, "Did you find out what they are?" I said, "the answer is in the bag." He opened the bag and said, "2 boys??? Are you sure???" I said, "Yes!!!" He got the biggest smile from ear to ear. I was worried about having 2 more girls - especially for Peter's sake. Now our perfect little family will really be perfect!!! Yippee!!!

My friend Jessica has hopefully had her c-section! She was scheduled for today at 11:30 a.m. so if everything went as planned, she should be holding him in her arms as I type. The hospital did a growth test yesterday and they think he is 11 pounds 7 ounces - I guess we will find out later today how much he really weighs! I am so excited for her - I know she's been miserable and she can't wait to meet Eli! Another YIPPEE!!!

My friend Ilisa is coming over to hang out with me and the girls today. We're gonna get out of the house for a little bit and ride around in Davidson and Cornelius. Just something to do! It's nice that she's coming over and I really enjoy her company. She's an amazing artist and a genuinely nice person. It should be a fun day!

Off to the Doctor

Not much going on except a little staining once in awhile. I am so hopeful to get good news today! My appointment is at 12:15 p.m. so I'll post more later.

My girl, Tanya, saved me and brought me my book!!! YIPPEE!!! Love ya girl!!!

Jess is still in a holding pattern and goes in today to have a growth test done on Eli. He's gonna be HUGE and she's a little scared about having to push out a big baby. I hope he comes right out! If nothing happens over the week, she will be induced on Monday which is her original due date.

Well, keep your fingers crossed and hope for some good news today!

Not much going on

I've been more verticle the last 2 days than the early parts of the week. Still spotting sporatically. Not heavy at all but I am scared to do to much of anything. Had another bad headache today - 2 fiorcets later, it was gone.

Candace came over and is standing in for me at Sephora night. I had 22 ladies R.S.V.P. and apparently only 10 showed up. I know things come up but this is ridiculous. I've sent like 3 or 4 emails about this and I don't get why people R.S.V.P. and don't show. Maybe I should write a little blurb about R.S.V.P. etiquette in one of my upcoming emails along with Networking for Dummies.

Ava helped with dinner and she was very excited about it, eating quite a bit! Maybe we should have her help every night. She is constantly going to the bathroom and I am starting to get a little concerned. I'll have to see what happens tomorrow to decide if she might have a UTI or something. She said it doesn't hurt just that she feels like she has to go a lot.

Oh well, another weekend has come and gone and we are closer to the overall goal of having 2 healthy babies! Will post more later!

No Cigar!

Jess went in yesterday to receive cervidil and it didn't happen. The nurse she spoke with had a brain cloud and told her incorrect information which the dr. knew nothing about. Jess is schedule to go back in on Tuesday for more stress tests, etc. She said she can tell the baby has really dropped low over the last few days. Not much longer!

Still laying around like a schlub. Luckily the weather is gray and crappy so I don't really want to go anywhere. I would like a project of some kind - maybe I can find something in the craft closet to work on. I still can't get anyone to go to a bookstore for me. The spotting has tapered way off so now I sit here just waiting for Tuesday, my next Dr. appointment to see if the tear has shrunk any. I wish I could go to the dr. every week - so far I have been!

I found the "heartbeeps" again last night with the little sonogram machine. Deep breath! They sound nice and STRONG! It makes me smile every time!

Still chillin'

Well, it's day 5 of my boredom! I've laid in bed, folded laundry, read books, done computer work and have only gotten up to eat, make my special Jasmine Flower tea and to go potty. Still spotting. It's sporadic, sometimes heavy, sometimes extremely light but always there. It does get heavier if I am vertical for to long.

My friend Heather came over yesterday morning and brought me a big warm sweatshirt that she put a logo on as well as had me try a pair of maternity yoga pants that she is starting to make. They are fabulous! Later in the day my friend Tanya came by. It's always nice to see her.

Jessica, my pregger friend in MD will be going to the dr. today to take cervidil (http://www.frx.com/products/cervidil.aspx) - she's so miserable and they think the baby is at least 9+ pounds. She is 39 weeks so she wants to try to push before Eli gets too big to come out. She is scheduled to be induced on Monday if this doesn't work. It could possibly happen today or over the weekend. I'm hoping it goes fast and he comes out with no complications!

Other than that, just hanging out, trying to get someone to go to the bookstore for me. Any volunteers???

Will it ever end???

I guess I got a little excited when Candace came over and told me about the LKN Women meeting because I started bleeding again. This is driving me crazy. I had another bad headache yesterday. I think I should research to see if I can go to an acupuncturist or back to the chiropractor. My lower back on the left side is making me hobble around. Fun - Fun - Fun

Well, back to the bed with me! I'll post more later!

I guess bed rest is best

I've been chillin' the last couple of days and have stopped spotting almost entirely. I am so bored and have been doing lots on the computer. The babies are getting bigger - when I get up from laying down I can feel where they are in my uterus. They are suppose to be 4 inches long each and weigh about 2 ounces! We're to 15 weeks. I guess I'll have to do nothing until the SCH goes away which should be in about 5 weeks. That's going to be a long time for me to sit around and do nothing.

Still having headaches almost daily and am trying so hard not to take the Fiorcet but have had to a couple of times and it worked great. I just don't want to become dependant on it again.

Other than that, LKN Women meet tonight at a great event at CAP benefitting Barium Springs Home for Children and I can't go. It sucks!!! I was so excited for this event. I will miss seeing everyone. I hope the turnout is great. I have a feeling this will be a huge one for us!

Well - gonna go rest and have lunch! Will post more later!

Seeing Spots??

I saw Dr. Miller yesterday and needless to say, he wasn't very happy with me. He told me that I didn't understand the meaning of just resting and that I had to stop doing everything. No more meetings, no more walking around Lowe's, no more going up and down stairs, and that I shouldn't be riding in the car for an extended period of time. The spotting had almost stopped until I got to the office at which time there was a lot of dark brown.

On a positive note.....the babies look beautiful! Their sizes are perfect, there is plenty of fluid for both. The tear looks smaller and the fibroid has not grown. It is on the back left side of my uterus, close to the opening of my cervix which is why I am having pain on the left and is possibly why I have a tear in the first place.

It's 4:33 a.m. and I just got up to go potty and the dark blood is back. I am just hoping this thing is bleeding itself out. Lots of postings I've read say these things usually resolve by 20 weeks. Not much longer now. I can hang in there, I hope!!! It was positive to hear that the babies are doing great but now the blood is back and it stresses me out. I can't clear my head to go back to sleep so here I type.

The girls are so excited for Christmas. I am trying to stay positive for Peter, myself, and to show the girls what the having the "Christmas Spirit" means. It's getting harder for me to smile when I have a ton of things on my mind. Not just with the babies but just the whole place our whole family is right now. My parents are stressed, his parents are stressed, just about everyone I know is stressed. It's just stressing and I know it isn't good for my to be preggo with twins and unable to silent my thoughts. We all just need something positive to happen. So here I am trying to think of positive, positive, positive. It's just wearing me down and it's getting harder to snap out of it.

But..........the babies are healthy and growing perfectly........my girls are excited about Christmas.......they are trying to be better helpers in their own little ways........I just felt the right baby move......we have a family that loves us.......I have really good friends that will be here for me no matter what......I'm trying to snap out of it but I just can't so I'll just stop for now and type back later! Everybody think happy and positive thoughts and maybe something good will happen!

Starting to taper off!

Well, I've been to the bathroom about 50 times since I passed more blood this morning and it's starting to taper off. My Dr. is in surgery but I've spoken to the nurse twice and she has put me on bed rest. They want me to come in at 3:45 p.m. unless he says differently. This time wasn't as bad as the last time which is hopeful for me - maybe it means the clot is becoming less and less. I've read that these things usually settle by 20 weeks which is just 5 more weeks away!!! Those will be happy days when I don't have to dread going to the potty and seeing blood.

On another note....Ava has been up sick to her tummy from about 6:45 a.m. I don't think she could have eaten anything that would make her sick. She is soooo pitiful! We're making her stay in bed today and rest - so much for me resting, I've become her maid! Peter's home working so that helps a lot!

I'll keep posting later!

It's been a long night

Well, I've been up worrying all night. The spotting was getting heavier throughout the day yesterday and I laid around with my legs up for most of the day that I was home. Throughout the wee hours, the spotting has turned into blood again and I just passed another clot. I got my little sonogram out and can still hear both of the heartbeats going strong but I am so worried about this blood. I have to wait until 7:30 a.m. to call the dr. I already know what he will say. I am going to have to go back on bedrest and just be happy about it. It's makes me feel so bad because I can't help Peter with anything, I can't play with the girls, I can't go just walk around anywhere. Uggghhhh!!!!!

I'll post more after I talk to the dr.'s office! Keep your fingers crossed that all is alright.....

Guess I'm still overdoing it!

We had a family adventure yesterday! I decided that we should go try to cut down our own Christmas tree. My mom found a place in Lincolnton, about an hour away and off we went. On the way there I noticed that feeling again that I might be spotting. The day before we went to Lowe's, (I walked around) then the movie store and did some other riding around. When we got there, I went to the potty - the spotting is back. Not heavy, not bad like before but it's back. We didn't like the trees at the place so we left after about 10 minutes. It took us forever to get home due to a necessary stop at Boss Hog's Bar-B-Que! Once we got home, I was in bed with my feet up. It's tapered off but I told Peter I have GOT to take it easy over the next few days. Plus, I got up this morning sneezing, congested and my nose is all runny. PLEASE don't let me get sick! I'll keep you posted!

Two little heartbeats!

I am able to find both of the babies heartbeats on the home sonogram we have! I could only find one in the beginning. It's such a nice reassurance when I hear those little heartbeats! It just makes me smile! The girls love the sonogram machine to hear their own "heartbeeps". Hahahaha!

Peter thinks it's funny that I get so out of breath doing the most simple things. He also said that I've started rubbing my belly a lot, especially when I am standing or walking. He thinks it's cute! I didn't even notice that I've started doing that but I guess I have been.

Catching up!

Well, I've been a little slack in keeping this blog updated so I'll combine the last couple of weeks into 1 posting and promise to try to be better!

Saturday, November 8, 2008 1:30 a.m.

Peter and I were watching a movie and I felt like I had just started my period with a gush of liquid coming out of me. I ran to the bathroom and blood was everywhere. I'm not being dramatic, it was all over me, the floor, the toilet, EVERYWHERE. I sat on the potty and felt something come out of me. I just knew I had miscarried. Was it both babies? My mind was in complete overload and I didn't know what to do. The girls were asleep upstairs and had been for quite sometime, I needed to get to the hospital and find out what was going on. What to do, what to do. I always have a plan but this time I didn't. Peter kept asking me what we were going to do but I just didn't know. I considered calling my parents to come sit with the girls but by the time they got there, an hour would have already passed. I called my neighbor, Chris and she came to our rescue. We were off to the hospital and I had a positive little thought enter my head...maybe, just maybe I passed the clot. Upon arrival to the ER, I was given an internal, blood was taken, but they told me they couldn't really tell me anything because the u/s tech. wasn't in. They could only find 1 heartbeat which was breaking my heart. Bascially, it was a waste of time for us to go to the ER. They told us to call my Dr. first thing Monday morning and was told I could leave. I had to pee so I went to the bathroom and couldn't get up because blood was pouring out of me. I sat there several minutes with a non-stop flow. Peter was outside of the bathroom and the nurse came to find us for us to sign the discharge papers. He told her I was bleeding really badly so they decided to keep me and called the u/s tech in. Needless to say she wasn't very happy about having to come into work at 3 a.m. but that's why they make the big bucks, right??? We were with her for quite sometime and were able to see the babies wiggling around. She could not locate the hematoma. Once the radiologist and the ER dr. reviewed the u/s they determined the babies were great, growing nicely and they really didn't have an explanation other than they believed I passed the clot. I followed up with my Dr.'s office on Monday morning but by that time the bleeding had tapered off to just a lot of brown, end of period discharge. They decided I didn't need to come in and that I should just take it easy.

11-10-2008
Went to a LKN Mother of Multiple meeting with Kim. Lots of nice ladies and all were helpful. I think I'll wait til after December to join. Need every bit of money for Christmas. I did learn about putting my legs up on the couch and relaxing as much as possible to help keep the babies stable until the end of the pregnancy. I do not want the babies to come to early and end up in the NICU.

11-12-08
Lunch at The Tea House for LKN Women. Nice turnout and great lunch. For those members that didn't know I am pregnant, they do now!!! Several offers of throwing a nice big baby shower for 2 which I am all up for since we got rid of all things baby!!! My discharge is barely noticable so I feel like I am on top of the world.

11-13-08
SPN Women meeting in Statesville at The Wine Maestro. Heather and I attended the meeting - all started off great but I had a weird feeling. I could feel a discharge and left the meeting to get to the potty. DAMN! More spotting, no blood but a lot of brown discharge. I had to pull Heather out of the meeting and had to get home to put my legs up and rest. Upon arrival at home, I was stressed out due to the spotting and was so scared more blood was coming my way.

11-14-08 until 11-18-08 Still spotting over the next few days. Starting to taper but I hope I don't have to stay on "rest" this whole pregnancy.

11-18-08
Visit to The Women's Institute for my nuchial fold testing. Lots of time with the u/s tech. She was extremely nice and said that if she had to guess, it looked like a penis was forming on one of the babies!!!! She thinks the other maybe a girl but it is still WAY to soon to tell. How exciting it would be to get a boy!!! Only time will tell. The u/s tech. could NOT find the tear either. That
such positive news for me! I am still spotting but it's not as bad as it was.

Time between - I have to brag on my wonderful husband. He's been such a great daddy and has been so helpful. He's done all the laundry (as usual), most of the cooking and has been getting the girls up, making their breakfast, making their lunches for school, taking them and picking them up. I know it's hard on him doing everything but I know he understands it's not easy for me right now and it's only going to get harder. I wish I could be of more help but the most important thing is to stay healthy and to make sure the babies are healthy and that I am doing all I can to ensure that.

11-24-08
Had a HORRIBLE migraine today. It sucked. Ava and Jaylen don't understand. I feel bad that I need to rest and they don't get it. I had to keep a cold compress on my head, dark room, no noise, no light. I took about 6 Tylenol thoughout the day and nothing was working. I really don't want to have to take Fiorcet again but I don't think I will have a choice. If my headaches keep me from functioning, that just isn't going to work.

11-25-08
Still spotting but not extremely heavy but it's still stressing me out. My Dr. visit with Dr. Miller. at 11:15 p.m. I made Peter go with me so I didn't have a repeat of feeling like shit for being ignored and feeling unimportant. I confronted Dr. Miller telling him I was very upset after our last visit and that I had to go on the internet for answers. He hadn't realized that no one came to talk to me. He apologized and seemed very sincere. It was a nice visit, he did a normal u/s and couldn't see anything out of the ordinary. Then he decided to do an internal u/s and there was the tear. It's still there. It hasn't grown and looks like it might be going away but it is still there. DAMN IT! I thought I was in the clear. He also took a close look at the fibroid and the good news there is that it hasn't grown any. I was told, "Don't carry groceries, don't vaccum, don't carry laundry baskets (which I wouldn't do anyway), to sit on my ass, no stress and to have someone take over my monthly meetings. I have to take it extremely easy so that subchorionic hematoma doesn't tear more or start to bleed again. At least I know that it isn't really gone like I was lead to believe. I'll just have to chill. He also gave me a Fiorcet prescription! Also, I've gained a total of 12 pounds and am 15 weeks, at the end of the week. I haven't gained any weight in the last 2 weeks.

11-27-08
Thanksgiving! We went to the lake at my parents and had a nice relaxing time. No stress, no crazy amounts of cooking. Peter, Ava and I made the gourmet deviled eggs and they were wonderful. Jaylen was taking a nap and Ava was an egg peelin' little fool! It was so much fun having her help. The spotting is down to just a tiny bit here and there. I've been taking it easy. Sitting a lot. Resting when I get tired and trying to stay positive. The most stress I've had is taking the dogs to my parents. Duke is such a pain in the ass. He jumps all over the backseat, climbs up on the back of the girls seats. They hit him with whatever they can get their little hands on. He's always been annoying when it comes to riding in the car. Maybe one day we can invest in one of those bars that go between the seat and the back. That would be wonderful!

11-29-08
Present day! Well I've caught you up on the happenings with the family and the pregnancy over the last couple of weeks. My spotting has virtually stopped. Now there is just a tinge present and that isn't all the time. I've been chilling out trying to stay un-stressed (yea, right!). We have an LKN Women meeting coming up this Wednesday which I plan to attend. It's the last meeting of the year and it will be a nice one. I will just SIT! Nothing else. This will probably be the last meeting I will be able to attend. I can still do all the behind the scenes stuff but I will probably not feel like going to the future ones. BUT, you never know! Only time will tell!

I went on the internet yesterday and today and have been watching you tube videos on the preemie babys. I didn't know it but they also have a term for smaller than preemie babies - it's micropreemies. Some of those videos brought tears to my eyes. The medical advances of today are just amazing. I just hope above all hopes that I am able to carry these babies to at least 37 to 38 weeks. That would be wonderful!

LKN Women and Heartbeat

Another successful meeting for LKN Women. We were at Head Over Heelz in Mooresville, NC. and had a great time. I am so thankful for all the wonderful friendships I have made from the group. Tons of support and also a great source of knowledge in my ladies. Everyone made sure I sat, didn't pick up anything, didn't move anything. It was so hard not to jump right in and go back to running around, passing out hugs.

Candace and Heather, my little sneaks brought in a birthday cake as a surprise and I must say, it was one of the highlights of my birthday. I was all smiles but at one point I thought I was going to bust out crying because they cared enough to do something special.

Peter and the girls took me to the meeting then went to Gammaw's and Pappaw's for dinner. I didn't have to drive and kinda liked it. They came back to pick me up and Peter loaded up everything and was mad at me for even standing around. I got a great new pair of shoes so I am super happy! They rock!

We got home and the girls were exhausted. Thanks to Daddy for snagging them and taking them up to bed. We always have to have just a couple of minutes of snuggle time before they go upstairs. While Peter was upstairs, I got the sonogram out and thought I'd give it another try. After several minutes, I was able to find a heartbeat!!!! Fast little thing!! I almost missed it but once I zero'ed in on it, I was grinning from ear to ear. I had to wait for Peter to come back downstairs so he could hear it for himself. I could only find 1 though and it was right at the left of my c-section scar so that must be the baby that is underneath. Maybe we should name that one Sydney because "it" is down under!!!! I am so glad my day ended on a positive note! I really needed a little boost and to be around my friends and then to hear that little heartbeat just let me know that everything will be alright.

11 Weeks and counting

Well my birthday, November 4th, didn't start out as lovely as I had hoped. I started spotting at 4 a.m. and stayed up all night, worrying. It wasn't bright red blood, more peach colored. I called the dr. at 8:00 a.m. and was in there by 8:40 a.m. Another vaginal u/s and everything looked different from last week. The babies were pushed over to the left, they were on the right last week, their measurements matched last week and now the lower baby is measuring a few days behind. There was this big round thing on the u/s which turned out to be a fibroid growing with the babies and is now as big as them. I also have a subchorionic hematoma. Here's a link to help understand exactly what that is: http://www.justmommies.com/articles/subchorionic-hematoma.shtml . I was in the process of asking questions when there was a knock on the door, the dr. started saying sorry, and he had to leave to go to labor and delivery. He told me bedrest for a few days as he was running out, keep my appt. in 2 weeks with them and that he was sorry. There I sat, my legs in the stirrups starring at the technician. She couldn't answer my questions and I didn't know which way to turn. I got to my car and lost it. I called my mother and talked to her until I calmed down. I came home, still very upset, balling my eyes out to be exact. I don't know why I got so upset. It's just so hard hearing that anytime there is blood present you are in danger of loosing your babies. I think I would have been a little more at ease if my dr. had stayed around long enough to answer my questions. Am I wrong in being a little miffed at the fact that there was no one for me to talk to about the news I had just received? I felt so lost. Thank god for the internet! I googled subchorionic-hematoma and found lots of helpful information. Apparently it was much more common than I realized and more so in multiple pregnancies.

I also think I am so tired of my birthday's. I use to look so forward to my birthday and the last few years they just suck. Next year is my big 4-0 and I am so hoping it won't suck. If I make it through this pregnancy and we are able to have the twins, they will be about 7 months old at my 40th birthday. Wow, that'll be a fun time! That's around the time that they start interacting which is always a fun time.

Really, my hopes are that everything turns out great. Just knowing that I am only 11 weeks and have already been placed on bedrest, it's a little daunting thinking that most of my life for the next few months will be just laying around but - if that's what I have to do, then that's what I will do. It could be much worse and I could be in the hospital on bedrest. Let's just hope I can avoid that all together.